...Where you go I will go, and where you stay I will stay. Your people will be my people and your God my God. Ruth 1:16 This is the journey of our lives...

Wednesday, June 23, 2010

Where the Wild Things live...

Have you ever wondered where Max left his wild things?
Where they roar their terrible roars, and roll their terrible eyes, and pull each other to pieces..
Well wonder no more
I have found them...
you don't even have to sail in a boat to find them... They are here
at my house.
And it doesn't look like they're leaving anytime soon
they are a bit smaller than I expected
and louder than I expected.
But also cuter than expected....I will keep them.

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

Cozette Grace Zimmermann - Happy Birthday

Cozy is 1, and I can't believe this year has gone by so quickly. She has gone from this quiet little bundle to my squealing, crawling baby girl chasing her brothers and sister. What a joyful little personality she has. She loves to be loved and cuddled. Her first real signs with her hands is her reaching for us and opening and closing them trying to bring us closer to her. We had a quiet night eating dinner and cake. Friday night with Daniel's family, celebrating Grammy's and Aimee's birthdays as well. My sweet girl loved her baby dolls and her cake! She tried to eat the plate she loved it so much! She is loving her car, her phones and beautiful clothes and her stroller for her babies (a surprise from Derek and Amy!). She is very much into loving her baby dolls, no surprise. She has walked about 15 steps in one try, but still prefers to crawl, it's faster! She loves to smile and crinkle her nose to show her two new big front teeth:) She loves her daddy best of all, she is such a daddies girl, when he gets home its all about him. Such a precious gift our Cozy Grace.

Wednesday, June 9, 2010

the feeling that what is wanted can be had or that events will turn out for the best:
to look forward to with desire and reasonable confidence.

to defeat the fulfillment of (hopes, plans, etc.); thwart;

Hope and Disappointment usually go hand in hand. Today is no exception. Hope reigns eternal in my heart, even on the days that disappointment rule. On days like these (years like these), eternity must be really long to outlast this....I hope so.

I'm allowed days like these, I call them ugh days. They are usually met with a type of yearning for Eternity, I remember feeling this way even as a small girl. I was a bit more dramatic about it then. Embarrassingly I'll admit to laying prostrate and tearfully begging God to take me away...I laugh at myself when I think of it. However, today, I miss that girl who could so quickly move to tears and then back to laughter at the slightest hapy thought. Today I seem to be less dramatic and then also slower to recover. Usually a tearful poem about a mean boy would do the trick, screaming into my pillow, a hot fudge sunday....some of those things still work:). But mostly life gets bigger and more complicated and recovery is slower, disappointment lasts longer and hope diminishes faster. It reminds me how little faith I have in the reality of God's love. How big His love is and how real it can be when dramatics are put aside. The nagging at the back of my disappointment is a tiny sliver and that big love. When I actually let it slip in it can take the scream right out me...the mad poems about a boy are now a tirade of phone calls or angry typing..and even that soothes me when I remember the purpose..its not all about jumping ahead to Eternity, although it would be a shorter easier route, and I'd been there since I was 12. So I realize in my feeble wisdom that being eternal minded doesn't mean skipping out on the purpose.

Tuesday, June 8, 2010

The truth about birth control...

“The Bible calls debt a curse and children a blessing. But in our culture we apply for a curse and reject blessings. Something is wrong with this picture." By Doug Phillips, Vision Forum

Hmmm... I have been torn for the last year contemplating this exact sentiment, funny I should find this today. Full circle as to why this has been on my mind, birth control. Ugh... I hate this subject and find that debating it with my doctor was pointless when I found out that they do not consider it "conception" unless there is implantation, so in easy terms, all forms of birth control can allow an egg to be fertilized, however they do not allow for implantation. Although the pill is designed to keep you from ovulation, if by chance you do and get pregnant, the fail safe of the pill is to abort. IUD' s don't keep you from ovulating at all, it just makes implantation impossible. I wish more doctors were very clear about this so we could make an educated decision based on facts. I have been searching for other ways to prevent pregnancy for the time being and it has been difficult. It seems the Lord's design for us to bear children is a pretty good one and it is difficult to control it. Hmm... Surgically it seems to be safe and non-abortive which is great if your ready to make that decision. However, other than one exception, that decision has been regretted in some way by everyone I know. I have taken the pill, quite a few different brands, before I knew what they did and even then, I had so many issues with the added hormones I never kept up on them. So, After much research I decided on a diaphragm, No hormones, just the barrier method. When I called to make the appointment the nurse tried to talk me out of it, saying it is not 99% effective like the pill or IUD's. When I explained my reasons she couldn't really argue, she finally told me whatver I was comfortbale with would be fine and then when she transferred me to scheduling, the lady on the phone had to check and make sure they still actually did those. Each person has to make this decision on their own, however, it needs to be an educated one and at least given all the options! The bottom line is that the Lord is in control of these things and sometimes pregnancy happens when we are least expecting it. I personally don't want to be miscarrying babies and not even knowing it. I hope this might shed some light on this issue for some of you.

Wednesday, June 2, 2010

Garden growth

Well this is our biggest garden yet! We had so much fun tending to it, I have even had enough veggies to take to the market and trade ours for a better variety from our farmer. Stella, is our farmer. She is an amazing agriculturalist and so very good to us. We traded lettuce and radishes for a huge variety of potatoes, tomatoes, zuchinni and onions. Soon we will have all those things as well, they are just not ready yet.